Saturday, 29 June 2013

True scared unhappy self.

It’s a common belief that positive thinking leads to a happier, healthier life. As children we are told to smile, be cheerful, and put on a happy face. As adults we are told to look on the bright side, to make lemonade, and see glasses as half full and a dozen such philosophies. Sometimes reality can get in the way of our ability to act the happy part though. Your hope can fail, boyfriends can cheat, friends can disappoint. Yes, horrible things do happen. Happiness in the face of all of that, that's not the goal. Feeling the horrible, going through it and knowing that you're not gonna die from those feelings, that's the point. At times, there is this terrifying emotion that reminds you that no matter how rational or grown up a person might seem, some part of him is absolutely sure and knows that an evil other-world exists just outside of our regular, everyday world. And that although we don't expect that world to collide with our calm, predictable one...well, really, at any moment that is exactly what might happen. It’s not always easy to speak your mind and more tough to admit that you're scared, its like a scar to your fragile ego. So, it's better to play dumb. Even when your whole body is aching to come clean, shut your mouth for it’s in these moments, when you just want to get real, drop the act, and be your true scared unhappy self.